The beautiful flow of life is forever changing, evolving, growing…
The earth, in all her beauty, moves beneath our feet quietly, unwavering.
Miracles happen all around us. The unfolding, passing, birthing, renewing all before our very eyes.
A delicate flower grows and is alive and will take its form in this world. It’s been given its divine assignment that it fulfills in the most magnificent way not because you or I willed it to, but because it’s in the powerful, the rhythmic flow of life.
It doesn’t come to be because we asked it to, planned for it, micromanaged or controlled it.
If life unfolds all on its own, why do we feel the need to control it?
Why do we try to control the uncontrollable?
What fear is beneath our white knuckles and clenched fists?
Were you hurt or felt let down and unknowingly vowed to never let it happen again?
Maybe you fear people will leave you.
Maybe you’ve felt powerless, helpless, unsafe or unable to control anything so you seek to control what you believe is in your power.
Maybe you don’t want to be viewed as inadequate, incompetent, or you feel the need to uphold an image, a facade.
Maybe you try to control your family or partner bc you know what’s best. You’ve been appointed the guardian of all.
Maybe you live a life of familiarity but unfulfilled by its limitations and walls you’ve built.
We believe if we are at the controls, everything and everyone will be okay…
It feels safe…
Whether it’s your fear of the unknown, the unpredictable, the ambiguous, you want to grab the pen and write your own chapter as fast as your fingers will move before the flow envelops it in its beautiful path and finishes the story as the one true author.
I want you to hear these words: Whatever the source of your need to control is, that must have been hard for you. That must have taken a toll on you to now want to control everything around you to keep you and your loved ones safe.
I’m sorry you had to go through this.
Feel compassion for what you’ve experienced, the unacknowledged pain you’ve been carrying around with you.
This unattainable goal of rock solid certainty is exhausting, isn’t it…
You desperately want to trust the process, trust God, yourself, and those around you.
You want more than anything to let go, to stop trying so hard, stop fighting, and trust.
The truth is we’re not at the controls. The reigns we desperately want in our possession were never ours to possess – attached to nothing.
Our illusion of control gives us a false sense of security – a blanket we cover ourselves with leaving us cold.
We cannot grasp onto flowing water. It will lovingly run down your fingertips back to its home and continue on.
Close your eyes and breathe deeply.
What are you trying to control right now? Who… are you trying to control right now? Even if it’s hard to admit, be honest with yourself.
Picture this person or thing…
What’s underneath the need? What are you afraid of? What if you stopped trying to force, direct, or manage it? What if you let go and trusted this person, trusted the process of it all?
Rest your hands on your lap, palms up, hands open, big inhale, big exhale and see this frenetic ball of energy leave your body…
Breathe it out.
LIfe is moving.
Whether you want it to, it’s moving.
Whether you object, it’s moving.
Whether you agree, disagree, like it, not like it, it’s moving.
We can choose to see this process as scary and deny it’s reality, or curiously observe and take part in this exhilarating adventure.
We can choose to resist, stand up in the current, or let go and ride along allowing God’s hands to carry your surrendered self over obstacles with its healing waters and refreshing air.
Choose to dance with life’s drumbeat, quickening your steps and slowing them down with it’s rhythm.
Sometimes the very thing we don’t want to happen manifests itself because it was given energy.
Choose to let things rise and pass and flow weightlessly and uncharged in neutrality.
Some of the most incredible things in life take us completely by surprise if we’re willing and open, open to the unknown, new possibilities, open to the freedom available to us.
Inconsistent, imperfect and beautiful.
A quote by Jackson Kiddard – Anything you can’t control is teaching you how to let go.”
It’s going to be ok, my love.
Let go and trust.